Thursday, September 6

something had to give

As you probably gathered from yesterday's post, there's been something going on. Something I haven't been able to share with you and something that has been slowly eating away at me. A little something called my job. When I tell people what I do, they respond, "oh what a dream! That sounds perfect for you!" but that's just evidence that not everything is as good as it seems. Sometimes jobs that are seemingly ideal and perfect are actually the worst. The worst.

I won't go into too much detail but because of the content of the work, the company, the commute... pretty much everything about it... I could really go on for hours (because I have), I fell into a place I haven't been in a while. I felt depressed, useless, stupid and at times, crazy. I watched some of my favorite things about myself disappear and I cried myself to sleep many a night feeling helpless and trapped. You guys, I've been miserable. It's insane how much a job can do that to you.

But as a person who thrives on passion and uses that passion as fuel for every endeavor, to do a job that I was not only not passionate about but one that I didn't even believe in and for a company I didn't respect, just killed me.
illustration courtesy of designlovefest & katie evans

Something had to give. So I quit my job.

I never dreamed that my career would mean so much to me, but it does. Life's too short to settle and just merely go through the motions; to accept things and just "get over it"; and I wasn't going to do it anymore. That's the thing... you don't have to do it. In my case, I would have rather busted my you-know-what doing odd jobs to pay the rent than to continue sitting in a cubicle doing mindless work for people who didn't care about my growth or opinion... just for a steady paycheck.

Though it's scary and I won't lie to you, my stomach is still in knots, everything works out. It always has and it always will.

If ANY of you ever need to talk about your job or the job hunt, please email me. I'm by no means an expert but I feel that after this experience I can, at the very least, offer some advice. Real advice. Thank you all for sticking with me through this experience and I'm happy to announce... I'm BACK!

73 comments:

Becca said...

<3 this is such a great post, I love how life works out when you least expect it. I wasn't I've made some positive changes in mine and realised I can't sit and wait for good things, I have to go out and get them. I hope you're new job is fantastic and at least you know almost all the clients! xxx

Tammy @ Lemons, Avocados and the Bay said...

OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHH you got another job, one you really wanted too!! I'm so so happy for you =)

And wow, things really do happen for a reason!

xoxo =)

ROBOTXY said...

congrats on the new job allie! so stoked for you.

Leonora H Bravo said...

Amazing! So happy you found the courage to quit your job! And lo and behold, a better opportunity was waiting for you!! Kudos on your bravery!!!

call me debbie said...

Strange is life, isn't it? Things change all the time unexpectedly.

Good for you dear, I wish you a fresh -great- start! :)

Torrie said...

It's amazing how things can just line up like that so perfectly - it was obviously a good move to quit your job!

I'm popping over from Love, Elycia =) Love your blog!!

JoKnows said...

I went through something very similar. I gave up the job after more than 14 YEARS! It was hard, but I'm glad I did it. You are so right. This is your life. Don't spend it being miserable at work. :)

Elsha Bodily said...

Amazing amazing and truly a blessing! Congrats girl!

Vic said...

Glad you're back! Sometimes I think people do underestimate how much a job can affect your mind. How exciting to find something that you're actually passionate about though! We spend too much of our lives at work to hate what we do. Hope it all goes REALLY well for you!

Lauren- Old Red Boots said...

Congratulations! This is awesome news. I love it when things fall into place.

Martha said...

Very happy for you, life is too short! Two years ago I was right there with you. Quitting and finding my current position allowed me to work at home, a dream of mine FOREVER. I honestly didn't think my life could ever be as satisfying as it is now!

nishaantishu said...

I know exactly what you mean. I should love my job, it's perfect for me, but sometimes it really kills me and I wonder, is it worth it? I leave every day thinking, I wish the hardest part about my day was actually doing my job, not trying to do it. I'm happy you've found a better place though :)

MacKenzie Anderson said...

I love this post! Good for you lady! Congrats. I've thought about quitting my full time job but..i have a list of buts.. Hopefully my little business will take me out of there very son! <3 <3

Carey said...

Oh my gosh so exciting! We will be celebrating this weekend!

Jay said...

Congrats on the new job and for taking a step to make your life better! So many people stay in unhappy situations just because they are scared and it's so not worth it!

Jane {In the Pink and Green} said...

Congrats girl! So happy that everything fell into place...it always does :) Best of luck in your new position! xoxo

Louisa said...

COngratulations, that's wonderful :)

Hope-inmadness said...

Congrats, I hope that your new job will work out for you. I had to quit my job a while ago, it was so shitty and it made me feel depressed and stressed out. I'm glad that it quit and I don't regret it. And everything will work out in the end, right? :)

about killahgial said...

wow, i just got two rejections email last night from places i applied for since my pt job is barely helping me economically. this post just totally gave me some extra push and little hope that there's something out there for me. i just have to go get it. thanks so much! Xo

alongobucco said...

I guess this proves what they've always said; sometimes things fall apart so better things can fall together. So happy to hear about this new job--I'm sure you'll be amazing!

-Alyssa
The Glossy Life

UpAndAtom said...

this post was REALLY inspiring to me!!
-Kate

Sarah Bear =] said...

Love this post, and fabulous blog! :)
Stopping by from love elycia xox

Sarah @ www.whimsicalmumblings.blogspot.co.uk

Annie said...

I'm really glad everything worked out for you - good luck at the new place. Finding a job that you enjoy and doesn't destroy your soul is super important - if you're going to spend 40 hours a week doing it, you might as well enjoy it!x

p.s I love your notebooks!

Holly Foxen Wells of Glamour Mash said...

Oh my gosh- it's amazing how things work out sometimes! Congrats and cheers to new beginnings! I'm a new follower and fan of your blog. I immediately was drawn to it.

xx
Holly Foxen Wells
GlamourMash

Valerie Ronin said...

Congratulations! That's wonderful the way things worked out! And I'm new to your blog but it's adorable!

Taylor said...

Congratulations! I am glad that you were able to find a job so fast and one that is so right for you. I've been thinking recently about starting to look for another job, it's such a huge process that it seems a bit overwhelming, but I also don't want to leave it until the point where I am unhappy in my job.

Tiffany @ Polka Dotted Cats said...

This is amazing! Your courage took you to a higher place and you are going to be so happy! I love it.

Dawn said...

Good luck with your new job; that's so exciting! People who don't just sit around and let life happen to them are so inspirational to me. :)

Allie said...

Oh I'm so happy for you!!! The very best of luck to you. :)

JellyBones said...

Oh my gosh congratulations! It's really inspiring to see somebody having the guts to quit their day job. I have been seriously wanting to.... but alas, it freaks me out a little too much right now. I am in the process of buying a house, so, you know, there's that.
Anyways..... cute little blog you have!
Trish

www.jellybonesblog.blogspot.com

Treasure Tromp said...

this is so beyond fantastic. I am so happy for you, pretty lady!!

Kate Fitchett said...

That is great! I am glad that I got a chance to help you with your resume that potentially helped with landing the new job! Being happy in what you are doing is super important!

Sara said...

Hello, popping by via elycia! Very cute blog, and wow, one way to go and put yourself first by quitting your old job, and then 2: its like the universe immediately rewarded you with a new one you love, congrats!

~Sara

Sophie @TheForge said...

glad things worked out and your are feeling more positive :) doing a job you love is very important and it shows when you lose the passion. i'm happy for you that things turned around!

xx
sophie

http://theforgestyle.blogspot.com

Vanessa Fuentes said...

Stopping by from Elycia's blog to say hello and i am a new follower.

Stephanie Ann said...

I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason, even though we don't understand why some things happen the way that they do. Congrats on the new job! :)
Stopping by from Love Elycia

BFree said...

Hey, good job! Lovely blog, glad I was sent over by Elycia! Follow your dreams

A Texas Girl in California said...

Hey!! I just read this post, CONGRATULATIONS! I am currently job hunting with no success. I tried your email button, but nothing happened. Could you shoot me an email? gilliang36@gmail.com
Then I can reply with all my questions. :)

jackie said...

holy cow, I'm so glad that it all worked out! that must have been terrifying quitting your job, but it obviously paid off. good for you, girl.

Dayzee said...

It sounds like you went through something horrible and I'm so glad you've turned a corner! Jobs effect our lives way more than they should and it's so crucial to get one you enjoy. Congrats, and I hope your new job goes awesome. :)

Emily Elizabeth said...

Hey girlie! I was just introduced to your blog via Elycia and I must say, it's gorgeous. This post is so inspiring! People often think of quitting your job as a bad thing, but I feel that it actually can give more of a realistic perspective on your goals and what makes you happy. It's so awesome that it worked out for you the way that it did! So happy for you!

Xo,
♥ Emily

Blue Eyed Night Owl said...

That is wonderful! I'm glad you had the guts to get out of that situation and make room for a new job! Hope this will be a lot lot better for you:D

blueeyednightowl.blogspot.com/

The Egg said...

good for you!
life is WAY too short.
i just quit my job after 4 years last week....and heading to south america instead :)

xo the egg out west.

carly mary said...

congrats. i agree - life is way too short.
elycia sent me your way. and i can't wait to follow you on your journey.

Krysten @ Why Girls Are Weird said...

This just goes to show you that things do happen for a reason.

Miss Angie said...

Oh amazing. Someday someday... I wish you the best of luck!

madalynmae said...

Congratulations! That's so exciting. I wish you the best of luck in this new chapter. :)
p.s.- I came across your blog through Elycia, and I can already tell I'm going to love it. xo

Gladis said...

AWESOME, Congrats!

katie said...

I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!! seriously. i could not be happier. congratulations on your career change, lady. you deserved the offer. :) <3<3<3<3<3

Tabetha said...

Congratulations! Always best to love what you do for a living {as you will be spending a lot of time doing it!}. Love your blog-- I'm a new follower via Elycia!

http://aclosetintellectual.blogspot.com

Greta said...

Congrats!!!

Pen said...

Congrats! I'm in a similar situation, and am desperately trying to find my way out. The benefits and steady paycheck are too hard for me to give up in this economy.

Shannon said...

What an amazing blessing!!! Oh my goodness, I'm so happy for you. You went with your heart and everything worked out. Congratulations on your new job!

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Shannon said...

^^^ Oops, sorry for posting that link on the bottom of my comment. I didn't mean to. :P

Michelle said...

wow..i came here via elycia too, but reading this last post really spoke to me..my job is in cust serv at a cell ph company (please people, always give good surveys, they affect my job performance and my yearly raise and giving someone a zero bc they cant give you credits is super mean and evil!!!) and it is slowly eating at my soul..i cry pretty much everyday..

becca said...

good.for.you.

so refreshing to see that you dropped the thing that was making you sick, and everything worked out wonderfully for the better.

and so happy that you're back!

I hope you love your new job.

Stacy said...

Oh my gosh, Allie I'm so happy for you!! Thrilled, even. You deserve it and you were rewarded for taking the plunge. :) Congrats!

Diana B said...

I just found your blog recently, but really love it.

Congrats to you! Seems like this was meant to happen :) good luck!!

Amber said...

Congrats Allie! Just stopping over from elycia's to say thanks so much for having this awesome giveaway! And to tell you I am your newest follower. Check my site out http://mylifeunmasked.blogspot.com Thanks

Katherine / Of Corgis and Cocktails said...

CONGRATS!!! ah i am searching for a new position now being in a similar experience (the work i do is great for me - what i end up doing, the atmosphere, and other things make it awful) and i just keep hoping that september is 'the month' again and i get a new offer soon.

sounds like you have an awesome new opportunity and i'm glad to hear it! i love hearing that others get good jobs and that things work out - i like when the world works like that

<3 katherine
of corgis and cocktails

Praxis Uriarte said...

congratulations on the new job & having the courage to quit the old one! This post was really inspiring, and I totally agree with you -- everything always works out the way it should. I'm sure the new position will be exciting and hopefully rewarding. :]
xo, Praxis
praxsmiles.blogspot.com

MoranSha said...

wow, i've been there. i felt my spirit fading for 6 months, and after i quit i felt so light it was almost "worth" the heart ache just to feel so good...

i'm stopping by cause ♥elycia sent me, but i think i'll stick around :)

Nicole Marie said...

awww i'm so happy for you!!! it can be so scary but sometimes you just have to take the leap and cross your fingers that everything will work out

Lottie said...

congratulations on the new job and realising what is important to you. it is true what they say when one door closes another one opens :)

Lauren said...

Congratulations! That is amazing, I'm so happy for you! Good things do happen : )

Sarah Pete said...

congrats! good for you. :) I found your blog over at love elycia, and I'm super excited about your giveaway. awesome stuff. good luck with your new job, I hope you love it! I'm sort of in the same boat; looking for something more fulfilling, and not soul-draining. :P

Danielle Carroll said...

Congratulations to you!!! That's seriously amazing how everything worked out! What a blessing!!

{Also, just a reminder, my button was supposed to go up Sept. 1st..oopsies!! your's is up on my blog!}

Evani Gatsby said...

Congrats Allie! This post feels like something I needed, I might have to take you up on that job talk... Way to go friend!

Holly said...

Congrats!!
I need to quit my job!

Jess | the Jess Journals said...

Oh wow I'm glad that things worked out so well! We spend so much time at work that we should definitely love what we do! Congratulations!

Serena said...

Congratulations! That is incredible! I could really relate to this post. So happy for you!

Jenny said...

Congratulations!! I am so happy for you! That's just fate the way everything fell into place so quickly. I hope things are better from here on up. x

http://www.jenventure.blogspot.co.uk

Lena said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!! I'm about to start the big job hunt for my very first "real" job.. in another country. It's scary and intimidating but stories like this make it a little less so.